Dark Clouds

Nothing is what it cracks up to be.

Wanna know what I think? I'm starting to think love is admiration. The more I get to know people, friends, a lover, an acquaintance etc. I just can't help but feel like people are scared. I can't say I'm not. I feel more scared than ever to fall in love. I don't want to be vulnerable. I don't want to say it first.

Everything is greener on the other side.


Is there something wrong with not knowing exactly how to feel or how to act? I know. It makes no sense.



I've been chasing the sun for too long and I couldn't wait for the sun to set.
Now the darkness is more and more everyday.
I feel claustrophobic in my own head...
What was to be my solution is now my biggest and darkest problem.

My Soul

What is it about the forbidden that make us want it more? Rhetorical. There's a few answers. The temptation just gets us. Everything is so much greener on the other side. I played my favorite game today.

What if.

What if we left? What if I really did win? What if I really did fall for you? What if you really loved me? What if I got married? What if you never heard from me again? What if she doesn't...

What if you were mine? What if I was yours?

Enough!

I don't have much to talk about anymore. My hair is green. It's finally getting longer. I think I'll just keep letting it grow until it doesn't grow anymore. Sound like a plan? That's all I got. I can hardly keep my eyes open. Wish me luck that I can actually sleep now...

Tata
Angela




I can't sleep, I can't speak to you, I can't sleep.