Push and Pull.

How amazing. Love can make all the difference in the world.

I had an awful day the other day. I was so fed up with everyone's attitude. Everyone was being so negative and I was worn out. I got annoyed and pissed off. I wanted to run to my car and go for a drive for hours. Just get away from everyone and their comments. I started to pour a cocktail. I was making a mixed drink. So I poured my whiskey first. I went to the 2 liter and WHIPPED it open, of course I was angry. The pop exploded all over my face and chest. I couldn't even react I just let it spray all over me.

I decided that was my sign. I started laughing hysterically at myself and how angry I was. Then this amazingly funny thing happened to me. No one saw it and I so badly wish someone did. I laughed the whole time while I cleaned up the soda on the floor. When I took my shower, I so smiled and still chuckled at how rediculously angry I was. It was so flipped and just incredible.

I need more reminders like that. Reminders to stay calm. Not to get too high strung. Life goes on. Don't lose your patience! :D

Tata!

Angela <3

Sporadic.

Well, well, well... Things are really starting to shape up. For the good, Claro! I think when you start getting a backbone again, things really start to play out the way you'd like. Standing up for yourself really does have some benefits! Who would've thunk it!

Each day I try to set a mini goal. For the most part, those goals are being met! :D Lots to smile about.

Easter was fantastic! I went to my first Techno concert on Saturday! It was in the City and it was QUITE an interesting/ fun time. I couldn't hear anything for about 2 days, I made a pie Sunday morning and was crocked until my next (brunch) drink. Fantastic weekend! That is what you would call SUCCESS! I've also been late to work everyday so far and slept probably 24 hours over the last 3 days. So... recovering can be rough sometimes. ;)



Now. Now. Now. What have we been talking about lately? Not a clue. Don't you ever get the feeling there's a time and place for everything in life? I do. Especially as of late. I can't help but think I need/needed time for all this reflection! I don't know if you have noticed, but my blogs are becoming more sporadic. It must mean that it's time to start living again. ;) Or! Rather! I have been living!

Getting to the root of who you are is a hard lesson to learn. There's a core, a foundation, all your beliefs and all of your meaning. Your roots are all you need. WELL, you need the rest but your guts and your roots are the most important. You can lose yourself completely but your roots will always bring you back. I thought I was something I wasn't.

Got in touch with someone from my past. Hard lesson. I realized just what I was getting myself into, letting this person back into my life. Your past can shape your roots. Let it be a memory of why you are the way you are.

Everyone that is from your past, deserves to be there. Touche.

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Angela <3

Glad.

Sigh of HUGE relief. I've come to realize everything in life doesn't have to be a fight.
One of life's greatest lessons:

When you don't know what to say first, Don't say anything.

Holy crap. When you get stuck in your head, you're never able to let something go. So when I'm ready to jump out and get blunt, I stop and wait. I'll let you take care of everything.

This makes no sense to you. But that's okay. It's not supposed to make sense. I have this theory. All things can be avoided, so long as you use honey and you have patience.

It's all honey. Honey. Honey.


How's love? I had to tell myself recently that I have an EX for a reason. Not that anything was going to happen. But when the sudden stomach drop happens, you have to say something to yourself.

Not all people believe in my beliefs. I understand that, I really do. But if you at one point during your relationship you think to yourself, "This is NOT what I signed up for," you need to recognize that before getting into this relationship with your EX. Not everything is going to be different. Especially if it's 3-6 months down the road. Years, fine. I'll accept that people can change.

Any plans for Easter? I for one, can't express how excited I am for Easter. I'm a playboy girl. Any excuse to wear my ears is FINE BY ME. :D

Well, busy weekend ahead of me. Better hit that NEW BED. Get some AMAZING sleep. :) aahhhh...

Tata!

Angela <3

State the Obvious.

Life is too short. Don't waste your time on people that waste your time. Pretty simple, ami right? Of course I am! Why would you put yourself through hell. And back. It's not a question. Just stating the obvious. Really, I can't be the only one who does this face ---> o_O

I am not alone. And I am not aloud to waste more time on people that don't matter. People get so caught up in themselves. Who they're trying to be and who they're trying to impress. Honestly, I hate fakers. Fake your life and everything that comes out of your life is bullshit. The worst thing you can do is act in life. People smell bull shit from very very far away. I smell *sniff sniff* an act.

What happened to the positive people? Is anyone honestly giving the outsider a chance? No. Probably not. They're too stuck on their friends and who will judge them. Don't judge, don't be judged. No one can do that. Only God Can Judge Me. Stick to that!

Who do you live for? Think about that every time you get consumed in someone's gossip. Who cares. Stay out of it.


So. Sticking to the get in touch with nature thing everyday. Usually, I try to sit outside on my deck for 20-30 minutes every morning. Such a relaxing thing hearing the birds and watching the sun move. Incredible thing seeing the world change minute by minute. It's such an amazing thing to really appreciate the world we live in. I know that's not the scientific thing. But really, it's as if the sun moves, being here.

Anyone star gazed lately? You should. You're missing out. I can't believe how bright the stars and moon have been! It's been so clear! Get outside and check out how amazing the world really is! You'd be surprised how much you really love it. Even people like me, (with awful allergies/sinus') can really appreciate all this beauty.

Well! TTFN!

Tata!
Angela