3 years. Ouch.

Wow, I'm stunned that it's been 3 years. So much has happened and I can't decide if I should've blogged about it or not.

Marriage.


Starting to understand everyone that talked about it. I kept thinking what are they talking about? It's a relationship, what's difficult about it? I kept trying to read between the lines but you are literally with someone everyday. Things get difficult. You bump heads. You share space. Space that you might not want to share that day.

Living with someone is ((point blank)) not easy. But now let's add a piece of paper to it. It's legally binding you to someone else. so whatever this person does, affects you. So if they decide to buy a large item, that's something that affects you. if they decide to make plans without your knowledge, whoooops! Affects you.

I started having this realization real quick after the day of our wedding.

Opening the cards from friends and family, everyone put Mr. And Mrs.


Well, i haven't changed my name. Still. It's already 6 months later and I still haven't changed my name. When did this name change start to happen? I don't understand it. I was born with a name, why do I now have to change it? If I'm not mistaken my family is just as important, if not more. No? The husband needs permission. I need to say yes. I have to say I do. I have to do everything. Why is my name the one that changes?

Many questions to this whole marriage thing.

It's interesting how customs form as well.


Tonight's menu.



Khoresht karafs


Google it. 😎

Tata for now.


Angela

Companion.

I keep seeing this partnership. I find this interesting. People have told me in my life, that when you meet the right person, your life will chnage and you will want to get married. Maybe, just maybe I have met that person.



I make the salad, you make the meat. You cook the dinner, I clean it up. You got dinner, I'll get breakfast. Always looking out for eachother and speaking up for eachother. I love when things feel so natural but you feel as if you never would meet someone so incredible.

When do you start asking questions? I hate fear. :/

Went on a helicopter ride. Was one of the most fabulous ride of my life. Flew out from the suburbs up to the city. Wecircled the sears tower and came back. How incredible.

Get out and see the world. It makes you realize that your life is fabulous.

Tata!

<3 Angela


You're addicted to a feeling you can only get.
From me and your cigarettes.

Stuuuuupid!

Tata! Tata!

I find that things may constantly change, but there is an ever repeating circle of events that keep occurring.

Just like my hair. I think I love what I like. I like what I have for a matter of days and it just keeps repeating. I wonder how different it might be if I only didn't have a job that was so... vanity driven.

My family life is growing! I can't believe all a month can change in your life! Who knows if you're ever ready, ami right?

Well, that's my vicious circle I guess I must endure.


I guess I go sleep now. Tata!

<3 Xo Angela

P.S. Why is a Raven like a writing desk?






And here I lay in my same place again.
Wondering oh, wondering if he is my friend.
While I sit and wait for his breath,
I'll think on the day that we first met.

If this is so true to be,
Let him fall over and kiss me.

Somewhere Trouble Don't Go.

Take me. Take me. Somewhere trouble don't go.




I have been all over. And back again. I'm so excited to start a new year. Please, oh please.

Sometimes people can change. But I'm really starting to think I don't want to. What the hell is wrong with that? I think nothing.

Tata.
<3 Angela

Dun Dun Dun...

You done it NOW!

Been feeding my food addiction. Oh that appetite. Never happy when it takes control again. Oh well.

So! Guess what starts up after the new year?! Burlesque classes!! :D!! Here's the kicker. I work Saturdays. That's out. I work Tuesday and Thursday nights. So.. the beginner classes. Bummer. No place for me to go. What I'm thinking I might do is switch my schedule a bit... seems like a great way to make some changes. Get away from some things. Do a little switch-eroooo!

How absolutely gorgeous!

New Years resolutions anyone? Last year, I made the resolution to take a vacation every quarter. Even if it's just a weekend away. I failed. Miserably. I made it to one vacation. It was a week long. That counts for maybe 1 1/2. Right?

So this year, I'm going to make more time for myself. I always put off that pedicure. I never get to work out. I never get to make my lunches. Never get to do that 3 mile run I was looking forward to. So! Maybe, just maybe, it might be a little easier to accomplish this year. :)

CHEERS!








and Tata!
<3 Angela P.S. Be Fabulous, Darlin'!

Angel *

So. What's too fast?
Having sex on the first date?
Going 60 in a 30?
Getting married after 6 months?

Really, who is to judge, ami right?

It all opinion anyways.

I had a life changing experience. And I am happy about that. :) It is definitely going to take some time to getting used to. NO, I'm not pregnant. And NO, I'm not engaged or married.
But, love is... wonderful. Inspiring. Reassuring.
Who knows what the word is. You can't even really define it.

But I feel... elated. Like I have a best friend. Someone who I can sit in complete silence with and still smile and giggle to myself.
Hey, don't be hatin'.

Something big is coming. I can feel it. I'm trying so hard to find it and creating all this build up. Then, I'm not so much let down, but still waiting for it. Something big is brewing!

So, I go to bed now. I'll dream of all the amazing things it could be. :D


Chains of love got a hold on me.

Tata!
<3 Angela

Extreme Extremes.

Ah... I have found the source of life problems. I have found that extremes will kill your goals.

Don't force things. Don't think that cutting something out completely will solve your problems. Don't eat just meat. Don't not eat sugar. Live in the middle. Get your fix but don't be a hog. Life is all about balance, apparently.

If none of you have known, I sometimes have some anxiety. I get in my head and start to think and think and think. I put myself in anxiety filled situations. So when I know that the plans I made are coming up soon, I have already thought about it and what will happen and what to expect. Then comes my heart. THUMP THUMP THUMP THUMP. I feel like completely ditching whatever plan I had and just doing anything but that plan. Anything to get me to relax again.


It is quite an inconvenience, but maybe it's a sign or a gift. My everyday life is so planned. I'm all time and scheduled. Time. What an incredible thing. Maybe the spontaneity of life is missing from mine. Everything happens for a reason, right? Even if I have to suffer, maybe I need to lose control to see the beauty of the situation. It shouldn't be feared. Fear after all, is just something in your head. You create it.

An extreme. Why worry. Don't fear. Live in the now. Because tomorrow is the future. Yesterday was the past. Stay here. Be balanced

Tata!
Angela



I'm waking up, I feel it in my bones.
Enough to make my system blow.