So.. Hold up!

EEEEEE!!!!! What is up! Love love love love loooooove. Love is in the air.

>>---> <3 STRUCK.



I am so loving life right now! :D How are you? Hopefully loving life! :)

My butterflies are back. And in full force. They might be taking full control if I'm not careful. I can't wait to see if he's everything I'm expecting. I hope I'm pleasantly surprised. :D

I have nothing to add!!! I have so much excitement in my heart right now. I can't hardly breath. I'm ready to pop at any minute. Just like a balloon. My voice is squeely and I'm ready to burst into laughter and screams at any moment. Hands up! Touch the sky!


I'm higher than a motha... :D

Tata!

<3 Angela

Goal.

I consider myself a goal maker. I think life is all about goals. I decided to take some drastic measures this year. It was a year for change. A change in myself mentally and physically.

I never wanna be where I was. I never want to be so unhappy with where I am that I decide to put myself last.

Because of my roller coaster I couldn't really look at food as pleasure anymore. I don't see food as this amazing part of my life. I was such a foodie that I didn't look at food as nutrition. It was a guilty pleasure. I had no plan. I ate whatever I wanted, whenever I wanted. Not to make excuses but when you have a family that is constantly eating and eating meat at that, it is very hard to keep your cool. Being a vegetarian put a huge strain in my diet. I started eating junk food, and more and more processed foods. I was a vegetarian's worst nightmare.

I can't even wrap my head around the way i was. I must have been in a very blissful place. So blissful to completely forget about being healthy. Everyone can get off track every now and then. I don't blame myself. It's a lesson that needs to be learned. I'm just happy things really clicked lately.

So anyways! Switching gears...

Goals! My goals this year are to get back to my healthy self. I don't have a size in mind. Nor a goal weight. I actually HATE getting on scales. I don't think I'll ever be happy with numbers. I can weigh little to nothing but I still want the tone up and muscle. I want to be happy with what I see. I want to be happy with my performance. Get your mind out of the gutter. Any goals for you?

I had more to add. But I lost it. Got lost in those push ups. OH! Happy time change!! YAYY!! summer!! :D

Tata!
Angela <3

Hey!

It's better off this way.
I'm not okay.
Take a good hard look.


See, I'm so indecisive. But when I commit to something, I really, really, whole heartedly commit. I'm committed.

I'm getting a tattoo.


Surprised? I have the best reason in the world for a tattoo. I'm hoping this will just turn into a snowball effect. Life is too short. I am waaayyy too artsy to not show my colors. Pun intended. That's not my reasoning, though. I love them and it's for family. So you can't say thats not legit!

How's everyone feel about tattoos? I have had such a back and forth opinion about them. Now I'm really starting to love them. We all know that I have multiple personalities... Not the end of my thought. But everyone I want to be- can have tattoos. Even the real me.


It's a win- win situation. I need to stop wondering what others will think of me. I need to worry about me. I love art, I love my family. If I can cut hair all day and see it and think of all the happiness my family brings... I'll be one happy girl.

That's what life is all about, right? Family, the people you love, and happiness.

They love you at your best and at your absolute worst.

Got beef?! I don't care. I'm a vegetarian. :P SUCK ON THAT!

Tata!
Angela <3



P.S. I couldn't care less. Do your thang. It won't ever work out.

Birthday plans.

It's Girls Night Saturday, tomorrow!! :)

Going into the Chi tomorrow! Gettin' my groove on at Howl at the Moon! :) Can't wait to be with some fun, new people! Well, not really new. But new to go to the city with! Plus, it'll give me some fun birthday ideas. Cha-ching! :D

Speaking of birthday! My birthday is coming up! What are you getting me? ;) I'm thinking a cheeeeese party is in the cards. Cheese, wine, deli meats. The works! How fun! And Parisian! <3 it!

Je me sens aimé.

I decided to for sure make my Valentines this year. The glitter herpes are going to infect everyone this year! Can't wait to hopefully see the reflection pictures on Facebook! Hey! That's a great idea! Post your glitter herpes!! :D! I don't know if I want that rep. tho. hmm... thoughts...

Today was GOD AWFUL! I had so many nightmares last night and I'm starting to think I need to keep a positive mind before I go to bed. So I'll switch back to watching Pink Panther with Steve Martin, instead of reading. The books I'm reading are pretty violent so it could be the source.

I had dreams about the past as well. It really got to me to where I considered calling off of work to take a mental health day. Instead I got out of bed and put myself together as best as I could. I had a hard time keeping it together. Everyone was asking me about my love life today, as well. Had to be the curse of Friday the 13th. Just a rough, rough day. I pulled it together last minute and ended my day pretty fabulously. Now here I am, drinking my Kahlua and listening to my Parisian music and about to take a bubble bath. Life is good. (And almost the 14th)

I kept telling myself, in the back of my mind though, "You need to be happy. You can't be miserable another day. Think of all the things you would be dealing with if things hadn't changed. You made the right choice. Let him go." I think it helped. It got me to thinking that the more bitter I am, the more I am going to live in that bad, bad funk.

So here I go! Happy. :)

Au revoir!
(tata!)
Angela <3