I wished for you.

What is true Evil? Is a wish evil? Is a curse evil? How about superstition?

I'm alone. Somewhat lonely. But it beats the hell out of being with someone and being lonely. How pathetic is that? What do you need to do to get out of your situation? Play games? How about telling the truth?

Is the truth going to set you free? Who knows? Are you being true to yourself? Are you being someone you always wanted to be? I'm typing without looking, At all. I'm sick of on the edge. Is this a rant? It could be. I'm typing with such determining fingers. What is the right and wrong decision anyways?

I should be your first fucking priority.


Never saw the dark side, in your eyes.


When I see certain things I can't help but think, "Is this a line?"

Where are you. Who are you?


Sell yourself.


Lets talk about me, lets talk about you.


And you can join us on the other side.


You should be with me...

¡Make it rain!

My day was FABULOUS!!!! Anyone else?

Since the last time I've posted (yesterday) I feel as if I took my own advice. I've never felt happier in my life. I feel spicy, sassy, and happy for the first time in a long time. I'm back! I think my independence is back in full force and charged. This is therapy, who am I kidding.

Too many people get caught up in someone else. Someone else's life, that is. If you truly aren't doing things for you, you will not live a life to your full happiness. I LIVED today. And loved it! Every time I wanted to think about anything that was bugging me, I just thought of something else. I'm not going to suffer in this head and think of all the negative things that I used to think about.

Welcome back!

So what have I missed while I was absent?

Hope everyones day was fantastic. I was thinking today about the toxicity in thoughts. Think negative, negative will poison you. You get caught in that black hole. It could be a friend, a lover, a co-worker, doesn't matter! DONT GET SUCKED IN! You know what is best for you! Don't rationalize and convince yourself that something isn't what it is.

It is .EXACTLY. what it IS!

Do you realize just how amazing you are?! Look in the mirror! Smile! You can really use a great big smile! :D




Short but sweet baby doll.







Ta-ta for now!
Angela




And I can't breathe, without you. But I have to. Breathe, without you but I have to. People are people and sometimes it doesn't work out. And we know it's never simple, never easy. Breathe

Un segreto.

Personally, I love a good love story. Can't seem to get enough of them, lately. My book, French lessons has really been a complete package. A girl in an affair. A girl in affair and a man that wants to be in an affair. Being in a country and society where an affair is very much frowned upon, (i.e. Cheaters) I don't know if my inner European is making me more intrigued with these stories. Honestly can't stop reading em.

Now I'm going to make you think with these questions.

Is all fair in love and war?
Why is an affair bad or good?
Is loyalty dead?
Are we all too selfish or should we be in passion?

We've all heard the phrase "once a cheater, always a cheater." Or how about "have your cake and eat it too." it's funny how these sayings can be interpretted in many situations. Life, love, work. But what is the bottom line to these phrases? Be a good person? Probably.

Is anyone living life as a "good person" everyday? How about morals? Anyone have 'em anymore?

My life has taken a switch. Good? Bad? Who knows. We'll find out. Will I continue to be a good person? I would hope so. At the end of my day I want to be able to think, "that was a great day." All the switches and life changes that are happening are making me a little happier everyday. Starting tomorrow.

I was sick today. boooooo!

Ta-ta for now!

Angela



It seems she hangs upon the cheek of night
Like a rich jewel in an Ethiope's ear.

Una lezione di amore.

Does anyone out there take something for granted?

Of course you do. It was rhetorical.

Do you really realize what you had after it's gone?

I'm taking advantage of some things in my life. I'm being selfish and I don't care who it hurts. I can't say that this is something new. It's never been a new concept. My old roots have been stuck in this old habit. No one ever really changes. No one ever changes for someone else.

Why have I been trying to?

Do demons exist? Is it the devil's influence? Is it really a bad thing to live your life? The way you want, at least? Who ever said it was a bad thing to be everywhere at once? My life is full of questions lately.

This is Angela's Thoughts.

My time is what I'm selfish with. That is the answer.

My individuality is being compromised. I'm looking in the mirror and can say I missed me. Some things can be tamed, other things can't. My outlook is changing and being the person I wanted to be isn't in my cards. I have not been myself.

At all. This isn't me. I'm done waving this flag. I'm rationalizing things I would never rationalize. Be the way you want and people will accept this. Or not. But don't try to change for anyone. Don't make excuses for others. They will be what they will.

All of the rationalizing is BULL SHIT. I don't care to deal with that. I know what I know. It is what it is.

Figures...








All my complaints shrink to nothing
I'm ashamed of all my somethings
A lesson in love.

French.

I found my current lifestyle to be a little... Odd.

Apparently, I'm a little more French than what I thought. I'm calling it a GOOD thing. As much as I consider myself an Aquarius. Scratch that. I am. I am an Aquarius to the bone, with every description I find, every adjective describes myself. The hardest part: the truth. Everyone has the positives. Everyone has the negatives. I don't think anyone should be defined by a zodiac. But I do consider this definite on my end. My life is so up down, up down. What is this thing called life? Should I live right here right now? Or be in my head the whole time thinking of the negatives of my actions? Does this make me a pessimist?

I find myself shutting down. Isolating and getting back to my roots. Don't call me anti-social. I need to be in. In my head. In my cubical of a room. In me. If I can't get the In time, it's not good. I'm more In and myself with exercise. My running is therapy as of right now. Anyone get lost in their run/walk? Is physical good for the soul? Maybe I'm just the only one.

My current lifestyle is very desolate.

Probably wouldn't have it any other way. With the people that come in and out of life, I'm not feeling so bad about it. I think this is a whole new life lesson.

People come and go.
I think I finally understand this.

Anyone?


Angela

Busiest month of my LIFE

ya know, I reeeally have to say it. I'm pretty pumped for halloween this year.

I came up with a GREAT idea. :) IF! I have a party this year I decided Charlie's going to be the black swan (BRILLIANT I KNOW :)!!!) and I'll be the white swan. Im infinitely the smartest person in this world. TU TU AND ALL!! :D!

I really don't have too much to blog about these days. Just floating by, really.

:D TTFN

Angela

alone but not lonely.

As I sit at dinner by myself i cant help but wonder, "im not lonely. No. Im alone but so happy to be so." saturdays mark the end of a week for me and i have to say by the end of the week im ready to be alone and listen. The rush of people's voices behind me make me all kinds of relaxed and relieved that im doing somethong for me. This is not the first time that ive sat alone and had a meal to myself. I find it hard to pick a place (different from the place i am) and enjpy myself as much as i do. Infact, im starting to look forward to saturdays for the blatant fact that im alone and eating a meal so pure and eccentric. (not to mention its the end of the week for me.)

i sit at the bar wondering what people around me are eating and what they're thinking of the lone girl sitting at the bar. Dont pity me. Im loving this.

Im waiting for my mahi mahi which is accompainied by poblano peppers and a curry sauce with also green beans which im assuming is the cut for the heat. :) Yum! All of this dish, after a perfectly cooked grilled scallops starter.

God i love food. :)

Ill give u deets on the dessert later! Mangia time!! :)

Ttfn

angela the foodie