Sporadic.

Well, well, well... Things are really starting to shape up. For the good, Claro! I think when you start getting a backbone again, things really start to play out the way you'd like. Standing up for yourself really does have some benefits! Who would've thunk it!

Each day I try to set a mini goal. For the most part, those goals are being met! :D Lots to smile about.

Easter was fantastic! I went to my first Techno concert on Saturday! It was in the City and it was QUITE an interesting/ fun time. I couldn't hear anything for about 2 days, I made a pie Sunday morning and was crocked until my next (brunch) drink. Fantastic weekend! That is what you would call SUCCESS! I've also been late to work everyday so far and slept probably 24 hours over the last 3 days. So... recovering can be rough sometimes. ;)



Now. Now. Now. What have we been talking about lately? Not a clue. Don't you ever get the feeling there's a time and place for everything in life? I do. Especially as of late. I can't help but think I need/needed time for all this reflection! I don't know if you have noticed, but my blogs are becoming more sporadic. It must mean that it's time to start living again. ;) Or! Rather! I have been living!

Getting to the root of who you are is a hard lesson to learn. There's a core, a foundation, all your beliefs and all of your meaning. Your roots are all you need. WELL, you need the rest but your guts and your roots are the most important. You can lose yourself completely but your roots will always bring you back. I thought I was something I wasn't.

Got in touch with someone from my past. Hard lesson. I realized just what I was getting myself into, letting this person back into my life. Your past can shape your roots. Let it be a memory of why you are the way you are.

Everyone that is from your past, deserves to be there. Touche.

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Angela <3

Glad.

Sigh of HUGE relief. I've come to realize everything in life doesn't have to be a fight.
One of life's greatest lessons:

When you don't know what to say first, Don't say anything.

Holy crap. When you get stuck in your head, you're never able to let something go. So when I'm ready to jump out and get blunt, I stop and wait. I'll let you take care of everything.

This makes no sense to you. But that's okay. It's not supposed to make sense. I have this theory. All things can be avoided, so long as you use honey and you have patience.

It's all honey. Honey. Honey.


How's love? I had to tell myself recently that I have an EX for a reason. Not that anything was going to happen. But when the sudden stomach drop happens, you have to say something to yourself.

Not all people believe in my beliefs. I understand that, I really do. But if you at one point during your relationship you think to yourself, "This is NOT what I signed up for," you need to recognize that before getting into this relationship with your EX. Not everything is going to be different. Especially if it's 3-6 months down the road. Years, fine. I'll accept that people can change.

Any plans for Easter? I for one, can't express how excited I am for Easter. I'm a playboy girl. Any excuse to wear my ears is FINE BY ME. :D

Well, busy weekend ahead of me. Better hit that NEW BED. Get some AMAZING sleep. :) aahhhh...

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Angela <3

State the Obvious.

Life is too short. Don't waste your time on people that waste your time. Pretty simple, ami right? Of course I am! Why would you put yourself through hell. And back. It's not a question. Just stating the obvious. Really, I can't be the only one who does this face ---> o_O

I am not alone. And I am not aloud to waste more time on people that don't matter. People get so caught up in themselves. Who they're trying to be and who they're trying to impress. Honestly, I hate fakers. Fake your life and everything that comes out of your life is bullshit. The worst thing you can do is act in life. People smell bull shit from very very far away. I smell *sniff sniff* an act.

What happened to the positive people? Is anyone honestly giving the outsider a chance? No. Probably not. They're too stuck on their friends and who will judge them. Don't judge, don't be judged. No one can do that. Only God Can Judge Me. Stick to that!

Who do you live for? Think about that every time you get consumed in someone's gossip. Who cares. Stay out of it.


So. Sticking to the get in touch with nature thing everyday. Usually, I try to sit outside on my deck for 20-30 minutes every morning. Such a relaxing thing hearing the birds and watching the sun move. Incredible thing seeing the world change minute by minute. It's such an amazing thing to really appreciate the world we live in. I know that's not the scientific thing. But really, it's as if the sun moves, being here.

Anyone star gazed lately? You should. You're missing out. I can't believe how bright the stars and moon have been! It's been so clear! Get outside and check out how amazing the world really is! You'd be surprised how much you really love it. Even people like me, (with awful allergies/sinus') can really appreciate all this beauty.

Well! TTFN!

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Angela

Pay yourself.

Say it ain't so.
Your drug is a heart-breaker.
Say it ain't so.
My love is a life-taker.

Hey! Happy Hunger Games! Life is good. Kinda. Well, the Hunger Games makes life happier.

When do we find comfort as human beings? Is comfort and happiness found in other people? Say, a lover? I don't have the slightest clue.

I find some comfort in other people's lives. Found in movies. Laughter with other people. Is anything better than a genuine connection? With other people I mean. It's like fireworks. Incredible feeling, actually.

Waiting to feel normal. Again.

I find comfort in what I do, as well. I connect with people and get involved with working to make someone feel great about themselves. Is that considered selfish or selfless? Tamayta. Tahmahtoe.

Going to a concert soon! Can you say excited?! It's my first! I'm a virgin! It's a techno concert! Is that considered a concert? Or more of a dance contest? We'll see. :D

My savings account is growing! Of course I am buying things, yet, still able to save. Hooray for me! I'm still thinking my first house will be a lakehouse. That way I can rent it out and really make some dough. Also, isn't that considered a business? RHETORICAL. I think it is. :)

Any lakes I should check out? I think Pine Lake has some potential and then I wanna see Paw Paw. Anyone? Anyone have suggestions? I need to be able to check it out within 3-4 hours. Any more (Minocqua) is too far. Thanks!!


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Angela


I can't confront you, I never could do...
That which might hurt you, so try and be cool
when I say, "This way is a waterslide away from me that takes me further every day,"
hey, so be cool.

Movin' on.

Anyone feel like rebelling? Happens to me a lot. Dealing with Daily Demons, claro. Nothing new, obviously. Anyone have any constant battles? Something that is a constant? I think most of us have some sort of habit, ism, problem. Right?

I decided I'm going to talk about all the BULL SHIT and crazy things I hear on a daily basis. A frequent topic is always marriage. Most of the people I'm surrounded by are married. Sigh...

Is anyone happy? I hear about all these "unknown" people that are stuck in their marriage. They don't want to break up the family. They don't want to move out of their house yet. That means that they'll lose dadadadadadaddadadaaaa...So! In the mean time, they're going to go out and hang out with their lover in town. Huh... that's funny. I'm pretty sure your family is going to be broken up soon if you're doing that. On that subject, Is a mind-fuck worse than a real fuck? Everyone says that it's worse. But really, disease can be a major factor in that. How do we feel about this?

Regardless, I think technology is a huge issue in each relationship. They're are MAJOR red flags. Your phone is one of them. If you're territorial over your phone, what does that say? RED FLAG. Also, if you are going out of your way to talk to someone... RED FLAG.

Inhale...

I hate cell phones. They're full of secrets. I personally can't wait to be in my next relationship for the factor of seeing how they handle their phone. I'm so flippin' picky. This will be funny. I have this thing where, if I'm out to dinner, out with friends, out on a date.. I never take my phone out first if I can help it. If you grab you phone before I do, we have a problem. I really don't care what's on your phone. Don't show me.. unless I say, "Google it!" Then Go! Google away.

I don't care about your phone. I don't want to think of all the people you're possibly texting/ talking to. You're just digging a deeper hole. So take note MEN! Don't grab your phone. Unless you have some emergency, or need to check to see who's calling to silence it. I don't like anyone without common courtesy! Helloooo...

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Angela

Goal.

I consider myself a goal maker. I think life is all about goals. I decided to take some drastic measures this year. It was a year for change. A change in myself mentally and physically.

I never wanna be where I was. I never want to be so unhappy with where I am that I decide to put myself last.

Because of my roller coaster I couldn't really look at food as pleasure anymore. I don't see food as this amazing part of my life. I was such a foodie that I didn't look at food as nutrition. It was a guilty pleasure. I had no plan. I ate whatever I wanted, whenever I wanted. Not to make excuses but when you have a family that is constantly eating and eating meat at that, it is very hard to keep your cool. Being a vegetarian put a huge strain in my diet. I started eating junk food, and more and more processed foods. I was a vegetarian's worst nightmare.

I can't even wrap my head around the way i was. I must have been in a very blissful place. So blissful to completely forget about being healthy. Everyone can get off track every now and then. I don't blame myself. It's a lesson that needs to be learned. I'm just happy things really clicked lately.

So anyways! Switching gears...

Goals! My goals this year are to get back to my healthy self. I don't have a size in mind. Nor a goal weight. I actually HATE getting on scales. I don't think I'll ever be happy with numbers. I can weigh little to nothing but I still want the tone up and muscle. I want to be happy with what I see. I want to be happy with my performance. Get your mind out of the gutter. Any goals for you?

I had more to add. But I lost it. Got lost in those push ups. OH! Happy time change!! YAYY!! summer!! :D

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Angela <3

Hey!

It's better off this way.
I'm not okay.
Take a good hard look.


See, I'm so indecisive. But when I commit to something, I really, really, whole heartedly commit. I'm committed.

I'm getting a tattoo.


Surprised? I have the best reason in the world for a tattoo. I'm hoping this will just turn into a snowball effect. Life is too short. I am waaayyy too artsy to not show my colors. Pun intended. That's not my reasoning, though. I love them and it's for family. So you can't say thats not legit!

How's everyone feel about tattoos? I have had such a back and forth opinion about them. Now I'm really starting to love them. We all know that I have multiple personalities... Not the end of my thought. But everyone I want to be- can have tattoos. Even the real me.


It's a win- win situation. I need to stop wondering what others will think of me. I need to worry about me. I love art, I love my family. If I can cut hair all day and see it and think of all the happiness my family brings... I'll be one happy girl.

That's what life is all about, right? Family, the people you love, and happiness.

They love you at your best and at your absolute worst.

Got beef?! I don't care. I'm a vegetarian. :P SUCK ON THAT!

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Angela <3



P.S. I couldn't care less. Do your thang. It won't ever work out.